New Year... New Start

Wow its been a long time since I updated this thing. To be honest, I forgot I even had one. So its May now and iv been at Waikato University since February and Im still here!! Third time lucky. Im majoring in anthropology and minoring in Human Development. Who knows where thatll get me but my aim is to do something women related like protecting and sticking up for women. I am now single since Feb as well. So learning to be me again is proving to be a huge challenge but im sure itll be worth it in the end. I take each day as it comes as anything else seems to be a bit overwhelming. Um im pretty tired so ill update it more soon!!

Change..... Again

Uni in.. Nepal out. Another change of my mind but its made up this time I promice. Iv applied and everything. Time to move on. Im still working at the computer shop and its been going ok due to a change of shops. My manager is lovely haha. She buys us chocolate coffee even. Not much else has been happening. I have discovered that primary school playgrounds are extremly inspirational and lead to great decisions. Shame its raining, the slide will be all wet :-( lol. I wonder what the playgrounds in Auckland are like? The llamas are back!!! In the field with lots of little baby llamas hahaha. I drive past them everyday and stop and watch them and giggle in the car. Anzac Day today, i reckon its raining cos the earth is mourning the loss of all the soldiers. I got a poppy but cant figure out how to pin it to my clothes with out stabbing myself everytime I lean forwards haha. Hmm yea... and thats about it XD

Im not so sure

I have a job!!! Its working in a computer shop. My first week was a nightmare and couldnt have been any worse so Im hoping this week will be different. Its all for Nepal so thats what im keeping in mind. Im still hoping to go in September and come back mid december. Mt Everest here I come. Its hard but im hoping itll get easier as I get more experience. I live for lunch times and home time and weekends hahaha. Its hard been shut up in doors all day so i go out at lunchtimes to get fresh air, well as much fresh air as a town can offer anyways. I miss my friends but hopefully Ill see them at some stage. Its all about visualisation i reckon. Just dont let your dreams get clouded over by everyday life and itll be alright. I cant wait to go to the airport and get on the plane to Nepal. Life has changed and I guess thats ok itll just take a bit of getting used to. From school to been unemployed for like 5 months to employment haha its a lot of change. Plus the longer days are taking some getting used to. At 3pm its like yay home time but then u have to think twice and go no its not. And balancing time is another thing I have to learn how to do. Like spending time with family and friends and work and getting outdoors its all gotta have its time. At least the get a job lectures from mum and dad have stopped haha. Its getting colder now as well. I wanna get out tramping like a 3 day tramp before it gets all rainy and cold. Thats just no fun lol. Oh well, i shall keep dreaming and i know theyre all gonna come true.

A new beginning

Typical to my changable nature I have changed my plans for this year yet again. I am no longer going to university and am saving hard to go to Nepal in September to work in an orphanage then go trekking. Living my dream will be so cool. Iv always wanted to go there and see everything and experience the culture. Couldnt go to uni without fufilling this dream first. So I am job hunting currently and sitting my restricted test on Wednesday so lots of driving practise first hehe. My patience is certainly being tried. Getting there though and its certainly time I did it. It was a hard decision not to go to uni cos nearly all my friends are going but i think in terms of my personality and all that uni wasnt the place for me to be this year, not the right time really. Im visulising getting on the plane in September from Auckland and sitting watching the clouds out of the window as I get closer to my dream. In the meantime Im enjoying the sunshine and searching for that elusive job. Itd be cool if i passed my driving test, could drive to the forest anytime I wanted, provided I had the time hehe. So yea, a whole new year is just about to happen and Im glad I finally admitted I didnt want to go to uni afterall. Got my exam results back last week as well, did way better than id expected and i still maintain they are sumone elses results and not mine. English and geography were my best subjects. Bio, the one paper i did wasnt so good hehe but i dont mind cos it wasnt one of my strongest subjects to start with. I tired my best and thats good enough for me in the long run. Life has taken a change for the better and i feel like im finally doing what I want to do and that makes me extremly happy. Ciao for now peoples. Keep dreaming and living them.

A whole lot of change

Exams are over and so is school, what now? Lol not a whole lot. Well, partys, partys and sleep really haha. I am in the process of getting a job but its taking longer than I had thought and in the meantime I may as well relax lol. I cant believe schools over forever, excluding university. Then I have to move out, start my own life. It's cool tho cos a few of my friends plus my boyfriend are coming with me so I wont be alone. According to my disgruntled english teacher, I am a changed person and its a shame I became social haha. It's odd because shes the only one that thinks that. Everyone else is really really happy and glad about it. One of those people include me. I made it my goal at the start of the year to be more outgoing and be more friendly and i think iv accomplished that quite well. I did the talent quest, gone to partys, lots of other stuff that i wouldnt have done in my dreams. So really her opinion meant nothing cos its wrong. She said to me "Is it just english that u started to not put as much work in for?" And i would have told her the truth but i thought i better not, but the truth was that i didnt work in english because she didnt teach properly and she picked favourites then ignored the others. It was so unfair, so I decided to ignore her. She doesnt realise i actually worked a million times harder in subjects like geography which I actually care about. This could seem childish and immature but it did have its reasons and other people thought the same as me so i guess i cant have been that wrong. Im glad i never have to be taught be her again anyways. I went for my first job interview last week and i thought it went quite well, i was kind of offered the job but turned it down as it wasnt what Id expected, stupid move really but it really was a boring job. Guess ill have to keep searching. Life is just beginning, and I cant wait to experience it on my own two feet so its my own experiences. December already, almost christmas time!! Cant believe it. Scaryness haha. Oh and a couple of days ago, we glad wraped his guys car, who is in our year, we used over 400, of the stuff then we got shaving cream to put on as well but he caught us b4 we did that part so we had a huge shaving cream fight and got covered haha. Was so much fun and we got revenge for all his smart jokes all year too. It was great. Oh well thats about my rant for this time. Ciao for now people.

Its almost over!!

So one week and 2 days to my high school life is over!!! Cant believe it. Iv decided to go to Waikato uni to study geography next year, whether thats the right thing to do or not is another question but i can always change my mind and do something totally different. Got a whole life to live right? You could say this is a stressful time recently with all the work and study but at the same time its sorta of exciting that soon im gonna be responsible for what I do and who I am. No more going to the same place everyday and doing the same things. Iv applyed for 2 jobs now. One in a supermarket and one as an IT assistant hehe. Yes thats right, Im the computer geek who loves to play around with computers for hours on end and drink coffee but thats ok cos i like the outdoors too. Im hoping to go to climbing camp some time before uni starts cos I havent done much climbing for aaaaaages. Coming back to the topic of school, , my geography study is going good. Actually passing the tests with good marks is giving me good reason to smile. All those hours going over and over the same things must work well. We're studying 1984 in english or drivilish as we call it. The book itself was quite good on first reading before the teacher tore it apart. Now its just like ugh do we have to read this and analyse it anymore!!! Same with the film we watched. I didnt like it in the first place but hey it wasnt too bad but with a few "And what does this camera angle represent to moral society?" chucked in there it just wasnt the same. Im really gonna miss some of the teachers when I leave, theyre really cool and some are more like friends especially my computer teacher shes awesome. Guess ya gotta move on tho at some stage and my time has arrived. Im keeping in mind my whole travel thing and I was talking to a friend on the net the other day who is in Iraq in the army and he was telling me and trying to describe how much different it actually is there compared to the medias view that they show to us and it just made me realise even more, ya gotta get out there and see for yourself, not just hear or read about things because it wont be real. Theres a real world out there but you just gotta go after it to really experience it. Also in my life recently, iv started to read my bible again after a period of not. Iv realised its something i want in my life and it feels right this time. Its all about learning Iv realised. You cant just expect to understand cos thats just not the way it goes. Wow, its November all ready. Scary how fast this year has gone by. Like I went to OPC in April and now its November. Life moves quick so Im gonna run as fast as I can but slow enough to really experince everything it has to offer. Schools over, life starts and so does my journey. Hahaha thats very philosophical for a Wednesday evening. And, Im still determinded to go to Mt.Everest and the general region to go make a difference, their way, not a westerners way. I want to help the people but in a way thats theirs. So yea, thats always being my dream and still is :D Keep dreaming people.

Back to reality

Well, holidays are at a sorry end. Reality is kicking in and im running in the opposite direction. During this "Study break" i had promised myself i was gonna study in the second week all week. When the time came it just didnt happen so here i am lol not much better off but much more stress free well thats not exactly true. Still got too many decisions and life altering things going on that i dont exactly want to deal with. Only 5 more weeks of school left then its getting a job time even though i dont want one hahahaha. Then its off to uni. Iv got accepted into Waikato but i dunno about Auckland. I got into the accommodation there tho haha. I really dunno if uni is my thing yet but i suppose u gotta give it a try right. If it doesnt work out then oh well. Still gonna follow my dreams of Mt Everest. Climbing is always gonna rock my sox. Hmm itd be nice just to go build myself a little hut in the middle of the bush and just live in peace with nature lol. I can dream tho, its free and doesnt require a million forms to fill out. Ugh, just thinking of next year gives me a headache, wish i had more time. In a very odd place right now but im sure it'll pass.